If I hear one more person describe their day as bad, awful or nightmarish I will scream. You’ve been warned. It’s not that my days are worse than yours, it’s just that wherever you look or when you chat to people there are always folks in more difficulty or struggling with genuine far reaching problems than ours.
I know that it’s about perspective and that a small hiccup for one person can really unsettle them and send them spiralling into a deep depression or angst that takes a while to shift. But honestly?! Get a grip on those #firstworldproblems. If your ‘problems’ are about things that represent how blessed or fortunate you are, get over it. Would you swap them for someone else’s issues? Probably not. So make your choices and get on with it.
*lecture ends and Rosemary returns to #TeamPositive house rules*
My own context is NOTHING compared to some people’s current challenges. Just as when you decide to make a major purchase – a new car for example – you see your preferred vehicle everywhere and you suddenly notice all the adverts and so on, when cancer comes into your life you seem to hear about it more and people’s conversations appear to refer to it over and over again. Cancer is a graduated and calibrated beast; for some people it touches their lives and for others it crushes hopes and opportunities before they’ve even started. It’s like most things in life – there’s a continuum and at any one point you’re somewhere on the line. I’m thinking about people who are at the steeper end and wishing them healing and love.
I do now have an appointment to see my new Oncologist next Monday, to plan what path we’re going to take from here. Currently there is a conversation taking place about the benefits to me of having Chemotherapy. It was a shock to hear these words once we knew that my cancer hadn’t spread through my lymph nodes. Our thinking was fairly straightforward:
Lymph nodes infected = Chemotherapy, then Radiotherapy and Hormone therapy (no hair)
Lymph nodes not infected = Radiotherapy and Hormone therapy only (hair)
So to hear another alternative was a surprise. The reason is because the tumour was bigger than expected and its size has tipped over a threshold that is used to determine whether in my particular case Chemotherapy might be advantageous to keeping it at bay, so it’s a preventative intervention. My planned Oncotype DX test will be used to help make this decision as it can help to indicate whether this route is beneficial.
I know that this is the reason why Steve and I feel that just yet although the news is mostly positive, we are now having to consider what lies ahead in a slightly different context. We’re hoping that by this time next week it will all become clearer and whatever the decision is, plans can be made to move things forward.
My Mum bless her, when told about this possibility immediately suggested she shaved her head too and is hopeful that when her hair grew back it was all white rather than a mix of grey and white #firstworldproblems 😉
Have a good day! #mindset